Akai Tegami

Thank you. My dear friend

Wednesday, 11 March 2015 | 06:20 | 0 comments

This feeling that I always keep inside me
How many times did I failed to tell you
without any doubt
you always there for me
how grateful I am to you
during these years

You always hold my hand
encourage me to keep going forward
come out from the darkness
Every time I fall
You are always there
stretch out your hands

to help me

Time goes by
We will definitely separate soon
but we still connected to each other

Hidden Coward

Monday, 2 February 2015 | 01:29 | 0 comments

For a long time ago

I keep thinking about it

If we can be friends again

I won't ask for anything anymore

If you fine with it then

I also don't mind

My mouth keep lying

with the words that reverse to my thoughts

Today,

It not like I'm thinking of you

Fine,

I did think of you a bit

against my will

but the truth
your image keep spinning

inside my head...

The love that I receive from you

where should throw it

I wonder?

It can't be use

It does not mean anything to me

I don't want it anymore

For a long time ago,

I keep thinking

My feeling toward you

beautiful or ugly?

I don't know

I don't have any places to throw them to..

Falling in Love

Monday, 12 January 2015 | 21:29 | 0 comments

I was surprise
Suddenly our eyes meet
and I look away hurriedly

I wonder if you also
have the same thought as mine
"stop dreaming" I said to myself

I was very happy
and keep smiling like idiot
Love, love, love
What should I do?
Is this magic? or curse?
My beating heart is to annoying

Can I tell you how much I love you?
Can I tell you how much I care about you?
Can I tell you how much I want you?

Anything I do
my mind keep repeating the image of you
Everywhere I went
I can't stop keep thinking about you
It cannot be controlled anymore
My eyes keep notice you

Broken pieces..

Saturday, 16 August 2014 | 09:25 | 0 comments

We were torn apart. The bond between us did not last forever. Slowly we change and lastly the distance between us become more further. We can't understand each other anymore. Hatred was engrave in our heart.

That day, if we clear all those misunderstanding that happen between us. We might be friend again.

I really want you to trust me and give me a chance to explain. I am standing there behind your back. Waiting for you to turn and look at me. Listen to me. But you do not turn your face at me. When I try to talk to you. You always look down and avoid me.

I really want to tell you...

I glad that I can be friend with you. Last year, in the class, we sat next to each other. Being put in the same group and always together wherever we went. You rarely tell me your problem. But sometime, you did tell me some of your problem.

" Why when I do something you always said that I'm the wrong one!? you never even once agree with me!"..you said

I'm sorry if I don't take your side. I do care and treasure you. I do not want you to wander alone in the wrong path. I just want to be a friend that will correct you when you're wrong. And I want to stretch out my hand to help you when you lost. I want you to make you smile.

But, it's different now.. My hand cannot reach you anymore and you can't hear my voice. Your existence becomes smaller in my world. You slowly disappear from my sight.

I'm sorry I don't suit to be your best friend and I can't no longer be by you side anymore. In the future I hope that you meet someone which better than me. After what had happen between us that day. My heart waver to trust you anymore. A wall between us cannot be put down. It true we already forgive each other. But it still awkward to us to talk like old days.